A letter to future Cornelius
This post is a reply to one of my older posts. Read it here.
Wow, it has been almost a year since I wrote that post. And oh my have I grown.
What changed?
I left the job I was talking about in the previous post. I left because it has been the source of my anxiety for the longest time. I miss my students, but I am sure they will do just fine without me. I have faith in each and everyone of them.
As of right now, I am unemployed, but I have been working on some personal projects. I am volunteering to teach Chinese in a Discord server that I hang out in quite a bit, and doing a bit of social media work on the side. I do not receive pay for neither of these, but these past two weeks have just been very meaningful to me. And I am talking about retrieving meaning right after a 4-month-long quarter life crisis.
I still do not know if things are going to work out, but I am more than OK with that. And yes, things will get better.
A letter to future me
Hey, Cornelius:
By the time you are reading this, it would be 6th of November, 2025. If all goes right, you should be preparing your graduate school entrance exam. I am currently thinking about applying for the same graduate school that I did not get in last year. How is the exam prep going? You hanging there alright? I sure do hope so. If it just so happens that you are not doing any exam prep work, how is your job? (That is to say, if you were to have one.) How are you doing in life?
I am writing this because I was reading Bear posts from last year. So much has changed. For the better of course. I hope the same goes for you in 2025 as well.
Remember to be kind to yourself and the people around you. You have come a long way. See you next year, my friend.
Cornelius
11/6/2024